๑۩۞۩๑ Black Hearted๑۩۞۩๑

Haiz,,,

2009-11-10T15:34:00.002+08:00

為summo你要那麼計較??

上次父親節,我要買pizza給爸爸,我要你出一半的錢,我也沒逼你出錢,那時候你沒帶錢,我先幫忙你付.

那時候開始,你利用你要買東西,要我出一半錢...

Rubik'c cube (3x3,4x4) 你要求我出一半.

叫我給你錢,我說上次的你還沒還我,過後你就跟我說裡面扣.

好咯!扣就扣!

說分一半,放屁!

天天把他們放在你房間獨霸!

現在還把3x3的收起來...

我玩個屁!

還有,

天天你都要跟我計較.

summo屁道理??

你洗盤,你放sabun我就必須洗水.

沒洗你就呼天喚地.

罵東罵西.

我放sabun給你洗水你也呼天喚地.

罵我沒洗起來.

嗎的!你是大的咧!

summo屁榜樣?!

還要我給你看榜樣咧!

最近買cd你有要我給一半,又跟我要錢!

我生氣地說:"上次你還沒還我咧!''

哼!

欠我錢就不用還,我欠你一點點你就要我還!

切!

你很喜歡拿我出氣厚??

心情不好,跟我講話像蝦漿!

而且還是在問我東西耶!

嗎的,不好好回答你我又要被你罵!

嗎的!我不要再為你做對你義一的事了!

你還發神經,被媽媽罵了就叫我不要叫你!

你以為我稀罕阿??

這樣你也不會要我做東作西啦!!

我不知幾開心!!!

我沒見過想你這樣不要臉的人啦!

在家你最沒用最沒貢獻!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PMR

2009-10-09T14:33:00.003+08:00

LOOL........So fast leh...

PMR-ing liao....

today is the 3rd day...

Walao....

Ho chai i know how to do...

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Who got 淚了punya piano sheet a??

i want it le~~

Love 終極三國. ^^

k la... cuz now still PMR-ing...

cant write much...

tata~

Ying2

={

2009-08-07T17:25:00.004+08:00

好想念我的好朋友。。。

思敏。。

她

应该说她天真么？？

被人家说了不好听的东西。。。

还说人家是在开玩笑的。。

敏敏，你确定么？

别让人耍了。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我真的是认命了。。。

我想要去护着的它，

不管我如何努力，

最后都。。。。

失败了。。。

无法挽回了。。

我们变得陌生了。。

人。。本来就很现实。。

我们常常必须面对残酷的事实。。。

这些都还不是人做出来的？

我心里的悲伤。。。

有谁能了解它么？？

不要再伤害我好不好？

但是。。。有个人对我说。。

年轻人就是要学会接受事实。。

但是。。。你知不知道？？

我要接受的事实，

都是你制造出来的。。

接受你不想与我继续下去的事实么？？？

我做不到！！！

但是为什么你要逼我？？

逼我去接受它。。。

你离开了。。

我心碎了。。

璟

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

唉。。。

朋友阿朋友。。。

没有他们，

我们是活不下去的。。。

每个人都需要依靠，

每个人都需要帮助，

每个人都有寂寞的时候，

每个人都有需要朋友的时候。。。

我

找到一个超好的死党，

每天都粘在一起。。

不粘不行哦！！

了解她，喜欢她。。

他很喜欢吃蛋挞。。

看到那黄黄的蛋挞。。。

就会想起他那可爱的脸。。

但是。。。

最后他还是离开我了。。

去了一个我们无法见面的地方。。。

这根本就是。。。。

哎。。。

敏敏，我的好姐妹，我爱你哦!!!

老师，我和敏敏 {哈哈！！很丑对不对？？XD}

~ying2~

mood sucks..

2009-07-18T20:28:00.002+08:00

What the hell....

81 days to PMR?

I'm very sure that i'm not ready for that.

Scared of something will happen like when I'm taking UPSR...

Its D suffering...

Just hope that I'll not get IT again.

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someone is really good in saying lies...

I trusted her for everything she says and at last?

It was all fake...

I find it out myself..

But i'm not telling her that I've found out this..

It will effect our friendship...I don't wish for that...

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Another thing is....

I found out that....

THAT THING.....

is not as sweet and perfect as it looks like....

Its full of blood......

Full of tears....

Full of soreness....

I wish I'm not touching it.....

I wish I never knew it....

And I wish I'll never see it in my life again...

The feeling sucks...

Make you emo...

Make you down...

Making you to have no mood to do anything!

But...

If it is nice?

You'll want it...

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To:

My best friend, Min

I'm sorry.....

I don't mean to...

Hope you understand...

~Ying2~

Argh....

2009-03-29T16:25:00.002+08:00

PROJECTS!

Lots of them!

I'm gonna be insane!

ARGH!!!!!

Especially the lovely Sejarah project....

The rujukan!

I did it and did it again but theacher still gave me a big X..

ARGH!!!

A little stressout these days..

Alot of things to do......

PMR from now......

less than 200 days...

How am I going to..?????

I missed you so much!

Hope that we can meet each other this year end~

>.<

Cant wait till after PMR!!

It shall be fun lol~

Haiz..

No time for ON9 till....

thats all lol

=.=

~ying2~

水瓶座 2

2009-03-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间。一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这钟事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，不至于太没面子。可以继续貌似潇洒。但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。感情投入的越多越是伤的重。最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。所以，不轻易说。只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！” 有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生

27 Exams........

2009-03-16T10:48:00.003+08:00

Today~{MONDAY}

I went to school for?

WUSHU....

Although there was a little hot but the weather was quite nice~

My friend and I practised W..

This was the 1st time i felt that it was fun!

Lols~

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Exam is COMING~~~~

Owh..

Its is a NIGHTMARE for everyone?

maybe not~

erm....

Its kinda half nightmare for me..

6 more days for me to prepare.....

Is it enough time for me?

>.<

I hope so~~

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SORRY!!!!

I...... I dont mean to hurt you..

Its kinda hurt for me too....

no one will understand.....

Included you...

~ying2~

XD LURVE?

2009-03-08T17:37:00.002+08:00

This is the 2nd day after the injection..

But my arm? is still in pain....

Yesterday,

I went to school for WUSHU~

My friend smaked my arm....

lots of times..

same word~

SORRY!!!!

LOLS???

argh..

exam is coming.....

My school's the last!

How could they??!!!

I cant go out with my friends.....

I wanna see them!!

No choice... have to wait till...

AFTER PMR..

haiz....

LOVE?

NO WAY!

XXXXXXXXXX

~ying2~

26 AWWWW

2009-02-27T22:24:00.003+08:00

Awwww...

come on....

i'm going to cut my hair tomorrow....

but why???

what the heck?? sportcheck???

I have nothing to say with it...

minus two more marks from me==

So....

Now my total score is

ONLY 95!!!!

Aww!!!!!

The moral teacher!!

No brain!

She gave us the wrong damn moral paper!

And we dunno what is she talking about!

then she ask for the damn answer...

and we did'nt answer cuz we duno what the hell is she talking about!

Then she scolded us...

Say what the last class also know how to answer but we dunno~

what da hell?!

then my friends told her that she gave us the wrong paper..

=.=

SWT!

then she never say sorry to us!

shes so......

MORAL!!!

~ying2~

25 不能放弃

2009-02-21T17:34:00.003+08:00

Zzzz

What happened to my luck??

=.=

Where did they go?

OMG....

Today,

I went to school for wushu...

but when i wanna go home,

a bottle with some water fell down and hit my head and then my shoulder..

Till now, I think i've got a little pening kepala...

=.=

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哥。。

你为什么啊？？

你到底是怎样？？

难道你心情不好，

我的心情就会很好吗？？

你心情不好，

就对我不耐烦，

但我也会跟着心情变差啊!!

然后你叫我做什么，

我心里难受的感觉突然上升，

回答你或听不清你说什么的时候，

我也就不耐烦地问你。。

然后你却说：

你不能讲好来吗？（生气的语气）

或者，

你不要再来了吓。。（生气的语气）

又或者事发过后，

你说：

不知道在发什么神经!!

那你都不能说好来吗？？？？？？

那时你认为，

你没做到什么让我心情也不好的东西。

但，

那时候的我，

心情也许已经是跌入谷底了。。

你只会怪我说话的态度。。

但你不会想一想你对我的态度!!!

我很累!!

为了不让兄妹感情再次淡化，

我已经很努力的在忍你了!

但我却不能放弃。。

因为只要我们的感情再次受到破坏，

我就得从新来过。。

我不行了。。

（叹气）

~ying2~

24 14/2 Valentines......Min Min

2009-02-14T14:46:00.003+08:00

Owh...

Valentines day..

Alot of my friends are going to shopping~

They are going there after school~

My friend brought thier clothes and some brought handphones to school.

But I did'nt.

All this years,

valentine is not my tai ji...

I dun care weather today is or not...

DUH~

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Today,

I on9 and chat with my lovely friend..

Min Min!

She is now in Singapore and I missed her so much...

Hope that she can come back soon~

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Today,

We went to school.....

we have to complete 4 activities..

This is to help our group to get marks..

I get 3 out of four..

one is lompat jauh...

I always cant get the higher marks 4 this..

last year, Min Min encouraged me to jump on and on 4 the 9 marks..

I tried and tried...

And FINALLY,

I get it!

9 marks for it!

Thanks to my Min Min!

I love her so much!

Love her as my BEST FREIND!

Min:I miss you so much..

Pls do come back...

~ying2~

23 Eat~ XD

2009-02-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

Today,

I've ate alot~

There's beffet held at the place that brought peace?

lol

I don't know how to say that....

But I don't feel full~

I still can eat while mom and dad was full....

I can feed each half and hour~

But I still can't go fat.

Hahax~

I love it~

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Toay is the last day of CNY~

OMG

Its too fast larh......

Lol..

Time flies though......

Now,

Those couples are waiting for the valentines day...

lolz...

Hope those couples last forever~

Have a sweet journy of them~

Have alot of nice memories~

WISH COUPLES

Happy Valentines Day

^.^

SWT??

~ying2~

22 SHIT=.=

2009-02-07T16:46:00.002+08:00

OMG....

怎么办呢？？

猜我遇到什么了？？

=。=

人人讨厌的讨厌鬼？？？

可以那么说咯。。

我的朋友都不喜欢他哦。。

其实我也不是很喜欢他地。。。

他总是喜欢炫耀？

哎呀。。。。不懂他的人啦。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我报名考PMR了咯。。。

开始有点怕怕了。。

怕应付不了。。

怕。。

考不到我要的。。。成绩。。

选不到我要的科系。。

今年比去年更忙了。。

功课有点赶不上。。

不知明年会如何呢？

~ying2~

21 BAD LUCK

2009-02-06T17:25:00.004+08:00

YESTERDAY! 5 Feb 2009 was my bad luck day!

I woke up early in the morning,

and getscolded by parents...

Then,

I went to school.

The prefects came in to my class and checked our hair and nails.

At first, she checked my hair and tell me to trim them.

So, OKAY..

after that,

I let her to check my nails..

My nails are damn short!

She told me that my nails were long!

Then I was demerit by her...

1 mark...gone..

Then, the other damn prefect saw my ear's hole stick..

She said she wanted to check my ear's stick....

=.=

Then, she said my ear stick is against the LAW!!!!!

LAW OF DAMN PCGHS!

come on!

Its just a stick!

And my hair was covering it and nobody will purposely go and take a look on my ear!

How stupid law is this!

My 2 marks were gone!!!!

All add up was 3 marks!

This is the 1st year I get demarit so many marks!

And its only the starting of this year!

My GOD.....

it makes me feel sad!

But OKAY LORRRRRRR....

then the back of my head accidently knock the DAMN PCGHS's wall...

=.=

ok looooooo

then my book kena water!!!!!!!!

WTF!

ITS GONE BLACK!!!

THEN...

In the night while I was brushing my teeth,

ready to go to bed,

My dad....

scolded me because of my bro...

He don't want to help...

So, I get scold because he thinks that this happens because of our bro n sis ''ship'' was not good...

So i get scolded by him...

Then I cried.....

So BUTA!!!

Haiz....

So, not everyday is Sunday lo....

~ying2~

20 How to help... you?

2009-01-31T19:29:00.002+08:00

I felt that your thinking was so negative...

No matter what I say,

You would'nt listen..

You felt that your world is black.

I asked you why will you felt that?

There must be a reason,

right?

But you tell me that you don't know how to explain.

That feeling...

How did that make you so........

Pessimistic...

You tell me that you wanna die soon...

You tell me that you've met the ''God of darkness''??

But I'll not trust this nonsence.

No this kinda GOD.

God is bright~

God is kind~

God is no darkness!

I wanted to help you....

But.....How???

~ying2~

19 试着

2009-01-29T16:00:00.004+08:00

我会试着去包容你，

试着不跟你吵。。

试着改变我自己，

来改变你。。。

希望我的包容，

能让你因此而改变，

改变你对家人的态度，

改变你的脾气。

我不敢抱着太大的希望，

因为要改变你内心的想法，

实在不容易。。。

听了她一番话，

我终于肯去试。。

这样，

我不只能让我们的感情变好，

我也能让自己过得开心一点。

你对我做过许多过分的事情，

我都在试着去忘记。。

想你对我的好就够了。

我想帮你。。

因为如果你不把脾气改掉，

真的是不行。。

为什么？

你心里清楚得很。。

你在我心中，

永远，

是我的好哥哥。。

~ying2~

18 忍耐

2009-01-25T17:29:00.003+08:00

对他的忍耐，

我虽然想把范围缩小，

但却不得以地光大。。。

我对他不能有忍耐的限度，

因为我需要他。。

也因为这样，

我就必须忍气吞声，

不能跟他吵，

不计前冤，

但埋在我心底的火山，

不容许我把太多的熔岩收藏，

总要让我爆发。

但每当还没把熔岩爆出，

就得收敛。。。

这火山，

很没用吧？？

我的心中，

却有片眼泪大海，

他会因为火山的炎热，

而让眼泪沸腾，

无法控制地流了出来。。

而这些海眼泪，

就会被指责。。

我也不喜欢这片海眼泪。。

因为它，

让我显出我脆弱的一面。。

有时，

我会把自己关起来，

躲起来，

偷偷地哭。

不有人会知道。。

哭完了，

就把留在脸颊的泪水擦干，

继续沉默。。

但这讨厌的眼泪，

有时却很不争气地，

在人家面前落下。。。

我有时会去想，

我到底做错了什么？

让他要这么对我。。。

我很想知道，

我在他心中，

有着什么样的地位。。。

是一个值得珍惜的人，

还是一个他可以用来使唤的人？

有时我会很笨，

伤害到自己。。。

把墙壁当作出气筒，

用我握紧的拳头，

向墙面打去。。。

你如果问我：

“不会痛吗？”

当然会啊。。

都发红了。。。。

怎么可能不痛啊？

但又能怎样？？

于事无补。。

好羡慕我的朋友们，

他们的哥哥对他们又多好啊。。。

我真希望，

有一天，

他能像别人的哥哥对待他们的妹妹一样，

有耐心，

忍让，

不会因为生气我而动手。。

~ying2~

17 FK DAM!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

What the FUCK??!!!!

WHY???? WHY????????

Why must he talk to me like this??

Cant he be more patient when he talks to me???

Why SHOULD he shout at me?????

I'M NOT YOUR PUPPET!!!

I felt so.......sad?? pek chek?

But what can I do??

What can I do??????

TOLERANT la!!

JUST KEEP IT IN MY HEART LA!!

JUST SHUT UP CUZ I'M THE YOUNGEST ONES!!

I HATE TO BE THE YOUNGEST ONES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

help me........

~ying2~

16 24/1

2009-01-24T18:23:00.002+08:00

Today, is my birthday.....

This year is better then I thought~

hahas~~

Thanks to Xuan~

Thx 4 her wishes...

And all my friends who wishes me..

thank you all~

Min Min is back here.

And she phone me~

then I tell her that I phone back to her..

then we chat for around 1 hour.

............................................................................................

Two years had passed..

I miss my grandpa....

He will be in my heart forever~

.......................................................................

Someone that I hoped to remeber my birthday but she had forgotten it...

But its ok now....

Its enough for me this year~

~ying2~

15 YEAH~~~

2009-01-17T23:44:00.002+08:00

OH yeah~~~

Same thing~~

And I don't have to repeat it..

Some one told me happy birthday.

THANK YOU~

..............................................................................

I'm glad that I have a brother..

But you know that....

You'll like the big ones to treat you well.

Right??

My brother treat me.....

Well....

I don't know how to tell you how he treat me....

But I wish that he treat me better...

haiz...

gtg...

~ying2~

14 Which 1 do u prefer??

2009-01-10T18:04:00.002+08:00

You prefer to be the old ones or the young ones?

Someone prefer to be the young ones,

someone prefer to be the old ones...

But i prefer to be in the middle one....

But I am the youngest in my family...

My bro like to bully me...

but what can i do??

nothing.....

the only thing that i can do is tolerance...

I tolerate him...

be more patient when i get scold by him....

THIS is the ONLY thing i can do..

SO,

I want to have a little sister....

like him......

I want 1 is not because of i wanted to bully her...

I just wish that i can sayang and tell each other about what we are thinking...

Share..... something all we have.....

I really hope for that...

cause if i have a little bro, he cant share all this with me...

my bro neither.....

but....

DONT THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!

cause its imposible.....

~ying2~

13 BuZy bUzY

2009-01-10T17:02:00.003+08:00

After the scholl reopen,

my life became buzy...

No time for me to sms...

No time for me to watch movie all the time....

1 hour for 1 day...

8.30pm to 9.30 pm~~

the name of the movie is

3 daddies 1 mummy~

funny~~

Owh....

270++ days to go...

PMR

and....

13days to go...

My birthday...

15 days to go...

till chinese new year..

how nice~~

^.^

This year in my class,

I met some new friends...

One of them is friendly..

I like her...

Min Min said that she is coming back when its Chinese new year!

I wanna see her lovely face~~~

miss her so much~

To Min Min: hurry come beck ooo!!

i wanna meet uuuuuuuu~~~

~ying2~

12 Back to school

2009-01-03T14:38:00.003+08:00

Haiz...

I'm not in the same class with them!!

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

we are in K3F, K3G and K3H!

NOOOOO!!!!

I'm so so so so damn sad....

From K2H, I step in 1 step to K3G...

I hope that I can communicate well with my new friends.

And I hope I don't have conflict with them...

I hate it!

Tash went to K3F...

Shishi=.=

Haiz...

OMG

My favourite Chinese New Year is COMING!

hmmmm.

23 days left..

21 days left to my birthday...

^.^

I hope that someoe remembers it.

=.=

Nobody seems to remember my birthday,,,

Sob Sob...

Aiks...

Think positive lahzzz...

~Ying~

11 Min Min

2009-01-02T16:15:00.002+08:00

Haiz...

My friend is now living in Singapore...

She left me alone....

She's going there for a long period of time....

......

I've specially made a chatroom in our kuso web.

We can chat in there as long as she was online..

I made this is because she don't have MSN...

I'll tell her about this~

^.^

One of my friend leave me too...

She is studying in POR TAY now...

This is because of her house was nearer..

....

Two left...

I hope that they can be in the same class with me...

~ Ying2~

10

2008-12-30T17:02:00.003+08:00

Sienz....

Today, I have nothing to do...

So I went here...

School opening........soon

I have to go to school on 3rd of January.

Its because of we have to prepare all those Form 3 things?

lols...

Sienz....

I have to bother about the cocus again...

I hate cocu..

It makes me felt SICK!!!!!!!!

Damn!

Awwwww...

New year is coming....

Two days left~

OMG!!!

PMR is near!

The time to PMR is less then 1 year!

OMG..

I hope it dosen't change the format...

AND I HOPE THAT IT WAS EASY!!!!!!!

LOLS

~Ying2~

9 TiReD~~~~

2008-12-28T18:56:00.003+08:00

Wow....

I'm tired...

I came back from ''Fo Tang'' then I went on watching''Guess''.

=.=

After watching that, I came here!
Infront of the computer.

Blogging and clearing all the mails.

Friendster and chatting on msn~

............................................................................................................

Just you...

Yeah~

I think, I can't forget how you hurt me...

I'm so sorry about it.

But I won't hate you anymore..

Just as I say.....

But you make me scared...

Scared of something......

That I can't explain...

I hate something..

Its because of you...

But I don't hate you...

I'll be.....

~ReMeMbErInG yOu~

~ying2~

8 My Mood?

2008-12-27T14:33:00.003+08:00

Aiks....

Today's mood was....

Oh well...

nothing special....

Christmas was finally passed.....

It was celebrated by my friends in Gurney Plaza..

They were there till late in the night..

because of COUNTDOWN~

Some of them were happy but one of my friends was angry..

I don't know why~ Lol..

I din't went there but I went to ''pasar malam'' with my mom.

There was crowded.

Some of the shopkeepers were wearing their christmas hat.

and I met my friends there.

But we just passed by because we were ''so far from each other''!

And I bought ''some'' things..

WOOSHHHHHHHH

28 more days then it was my birthday!

30More days then its my favourite Chinese new year!

yeshhhh!

Oh yah~

This is my MOOD~~~

~ying2~

7 水瓶座

2008-12-26T17:22:00.001+08:00

> > 水瓶座终极完美分析> > 几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。> > 那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间。> > 一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。> > 没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。> > 水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。> > 用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。> > 但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这钟事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。> > 更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。> > 在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。> > 显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。> > 一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。> > 在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。> > 这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。> > 水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。> > 水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。> > 算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，不至于太没面子。可以继续貌似潇洒。> > 但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。> > 这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。> > 这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。> > 天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。> > 自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。> > 水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。> > 感情投入的越多越是伤的重。> > 最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。> > 爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。> > 所以，不轻易说。> > 只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。> > 只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。> > 之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。> > 人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说'哪有？冤啊！'。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己'我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！'> > 有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。> > 因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。> > 当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。> > 只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。> > 星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。> > 水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生

6 加油...

2008-12-26T14:25:00.002+08:00

虽然你没有让我把疑问解决掉，但是，既然你不想再提，我也无可奈何。我对你已经没有讨厌的感觉，只是，偶尔想起你，我就会感到心很疼，很难受，没心情做事，还搞到胃不舒服。只是希望你能在三年内闯出属于你自己的一片天。还有。。。你说的，你对感情很认真。希望你能做到哦。。。别再让喜欢你的女生们，因为你而流泪。。^.^加油哦！！

~ying2~

5 没有感觉了。。。

2008-12-24T14:55:00.005+08:00

我其實要對你說聲sorry.因為以前啊,讓你對我留下不好的印象.雖然你讓別人看我給你的紙條的做法是很過分,但都無所為了.我會寫最後那張罵你的紙條,是應為我真的很生氣.氣你當時拿紙條給別人看,氣你4年前突然對我的冷漠.因為4年前,我真的很喜歡你.但是,被你傷害了.因為你,我哭了,傷心了一段日子.我說我哭了,你卻跟同學一起嘲笑我.我真的不知道你為什麼要這樣對我.你的做法,的確傷到我.但你又知道嗎?我想你因該不知道罢.因為,受傷的不是你.
問你兩個簡單的問題好嗎?
1.你4年前,有沒有真的喜歡過我?還是在玩弄我的感情?
2.當時突然對我冷漠的你,到底是為甚麼?
直到現在,我還不明白你的做法.我希望你能回答我這簡單的問題.
我以前恨你,恨你這麼對我.但我想了很久,終於決定不再恨你.
我想謝謝你...讓我知道,真正喜歡一個人的感覺..

ying2

4 Damn Fker

2008-12-20T14:30:00.003+08:00

WHAT A FKER!

I WANNA TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE THE WORLD MOST BASTRD PERSON THAT I EVER MET!

I HOPE THAT I DON'T KNOW YOU AT ALL!

WHAT THE HELL??

YOU DON'T ALWAYS ACT KO LIEN LA!

DAMN IT LO!

BASTARD SHIT!

3

2008-12-20T12:57:00.002+08:00

Oh my god!
Why do world have such a person?
Its just sucks!
I hope that I'll not meet that kind of person anymore!
.............................................................................................................................
Christmas is coming up.
Everybody was sending all the Christmas wishes to all their friends.
I'm in it!
XD!
I've started to tution.
Finally..
Lols
Its been four years till now.
After Christmas, its was New Year!
I hope that everybody can be more perfect in year 2009.
.............................................................................................................................
Yippie!!
Finally!
My birthday is coming up soon!
Its two days before Chinese new year!
How nice~~
But that was my mom's suffering day fourteen-years ago.
I have to thank her on my Birthday...
............................................................................................................................
Next year was my PMR year..
That's why I'm going 4 tution..
I have to catch it up so I will be prepared..
>.<

............Ying2........

2

2008-12-08T22:36:00.003+08:00

Today was my happy day~

hahax~~XD

I finall finished my 3 days of ( ) classes!

Today, I've chat alot with my new friend.

She is a China girl..

She's going back to China tomorrow and I'm going back

to Penang~

This trip to Singapore is to the classes...

LOLZZ....

=.=

A boy suddently came to me and ask me

Are you a ''Penang Resident"? In chinese.

Then I was shocked and just knoded my head..

=.=

Then after he finished something he wanted to do,

he went to his friend and chat...

I don't feel wierd at all because I knew why he asked me for..

I think he asked this for his friend.

LOLZ~~

>.^

1

2008-12-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

I've opened a new bolg....

And today, my mood was bad...

i was get scolded for nothing because they misunderstood me...

When I get scolded, I was too lazy to help myself to proof that I was not angrying..

They misunderstood me.... He think i'm ''SMALL GAS''....

And today i'm way too tired.

when i talked to people,

my mom felt that I'm making my attitude purposely.

I have nothing to say...

i was depressed...

so this was why I am lazy to proof myself when I felt that I did not did wrong....

It feels so sucks!

COMMANDS!RULES!

ALL THE DAMN THINGS THAT I DON'T LIKE TO DO!

THEY ASKED ME TO DO IT!

BUT.....but i have to take it down...

all of it....

to make myself a better person...

GAMBATEH MYSELF!